I am currently going through what I like to call "My Quarter Life Crisis."
Essentially it consist's of me freaking out over the fact that I am turning the big 2-0 in less than six months. I've always imagined myself as a fabulous twenty-something: heels, pencil skirts, fancy drinks, city life. The problem is that of course I'm still stuck in college. Not just stuck in college, but at a college in the tiniest town imaginable.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my school. I wouldn't transfer for anything. It's just hard to imagine myself in the role I've always dreamed about when I'm 45 minutes from a Target. Where do I wear my heels? Where do I get tgo exerience the city lights? No where.
I'm also just tired of school. I don't want to learn-I want to do! I want to get started on my career and make a life for myself. Studying is just not what I'm passionate about. It's hard to believe that I have 2 and a half more years of this.
When will my life get started?
Monday, January 9, 2012
Monday, October 3, 2011
Clothing Confusion
I don't know if I have mentioned this before but I am from the wonderful state of Minnesota.
Now close your eyes and envision Minnesota. What do you see?
My guess is you see a shit ton of snow. Well, you're half right.
People from other states don't seem to understand that Minnesota is not all snow. We actually are one of those awesome states that shows all of the seasons in their wonderfulness. In Spring it is all green and blooming, in Summer it is as sweaty as a fat man's balls, in Fall the leaves are changing and falling, and yes, in Winter it is cold as hell.
Now as you all may know, it is October. It's supposed to be the ideal fall month: crisp air, leaves falling, sweaters, and scarves. Problem is, Minnesota is bipolar during Fall.
Last week I was bundling up in sweaters and wearing my awesome riding boots while enjoying a wonderful latte. This week though is forcasted to be in the 80's. Um, no. I have happily retired my shorts for jeans and tights. I do not want to go back to sleeping on top of my covers in just shorts and a sports bra. I want to cuddle in the blankets and sleep comfortably.
This creates a sort of confusion on the way that people here dress. On any given day on campus I will be sitting down and watching the people walk by. The first girl is in her jacket, jeans, and ugg boots. The second girl is wearing her short shorts, flip flops, and a tank top. The next girl is wearing shorts, uggs, and a t-shirt.* Do you see a problem here? Minnesotan's just do not understand how to adapt to these damn weather changes.
My personal opinion is once you're mid-way through September put your damn shorts away! Yes, you can wear them on those scary days where the high is 88 degrees, but otherwise you need to retire them and accept the days of not shaving. Don't even consider wearing your jacket unless it is too cold with just a sweatshirt on. I guarantee that by February you will be aching to not have to wear one, so hold off as long as possible. Enjoy the chill in the air, it's refreshing! And I just don't understand why I have to go here but seriously people, DO NOT WEAR BOOTS WITH SHORTS! You just look confused about the weather. Shorts are for hot weather and boots are for cold. It's possible to pull off a sweatshirt with shorts, but boots are too far. I'm only trying to save you from yourself.
*Guys do not matter because they will wear jeans throughout the summer or wear shorts throughout the winter. They are beasts and I do not understand them.
Now close your eyes and envision Minnesota. What do you see?
My guess is you see a shit ton of snow. Well, you're half right.
People from other states don't seem to understand that Minnesota is not all snow. We actually are one of those awesome states that shows all of the seasons in their wonderfulness. In Spring it is all green and blooming, in Summer it is as sweaty as a fat man's balls, in Fall the leaves are changing and falling, and yes, in Winter it is cold as hell.
Now as you all may know, it is October. It's supposed to be the ideal fall month: crisp air, leaves falling, sweaters, and scarves. Problem is, Minnesota is bipolar during Fall.
Last week I was bundling up in sweaters and wearing my awesome riding boots while enjoying a wonderful latte. This week though is forcasted to be in the 80's. Um, no. I have happily retired my shorts for jeans and tights. I do not want to go back to sleeping on top of my covers in just shorts and a sports bra. I want to cuddle in the blankets and sleep comfortably.
This creates a sort of confusion on the way that people here dress. On any given day on campus I will be sitting down and watching the people walk by. The first girl is in her jacket, jeans, and ugg boots. The second girl is wearing her short shorts, flip flops, and a tank top. The next girl is wearing shorts, uggs, and a t-shirt.* Do you see a problem here? Minnesotan's just do not understand how to adapt to these damn weather changes.
My personal opinion is once you're mid-way through September put your damn shorts away! Yes, you can wear them on those scary days where the high is 88 degrees, but otherwise you need to retire them and accept the days of not shaving. Don't even consider wearing your jacket unless it is too cold with just a sweatshirt on. I guarantee that by February you will be aching to not have to wear one, so hold off as long as possible. Enjoy the chill in the air, it's refreshing! And I just don't understand why I have to go here but seriously people, DO NOT WEAR BOOTS WITH SHORTS! You just look confused about the weather. Shorts are for hot weather and boots are for cold. It's possible to pull off a sweatshirt with shorts, but boots are too far. I'm only trying to save you from yourself.
*Guys do not matter because they will wear jeans throughout the summer or wear shorts throughout the winter. They are beasts and I do not understand them.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Fuck Buddies
So, Fuck Buddies. Friend's who hook-up.
For this discussion we will consider "fuck" to cover not only sex.
I guess I just don't get it.
I have never been in anything besides a commited relationship.
I have never kissed outside of one, let alone anything that is near intercourse.
My boyfriends roommates on the other hand seem to be very big fans of this practice.
I've read articles before about how they are unlikely to work because someone will inevitably gain feelings for the other. From my stand point this seems pretty true.
For one of the roommates, who we will call Al, had this happen to him. He decided to engage in a "Fuck Buddy" relationship with a close friend of his groups. Apparently they had both decided at the beginning that this would be nothing more than simple sex (is that even possible?). Then I was told that Al had developed feelings for this girl and would not mind pursuing something more from her than just sex. She, though, had just gotten out of a relationship and had no interest in one anytime soon. Al then decided to keep up with the "Fuck Buddy" relationship and still is now.
But I can't help but wonder how long that can really last before someone gets hurt. He obviously has already developed some feelings for her and would you not assume that they will continue to grow? There has to be a point where he can't just settle for just sex with a girl he has feelings for.
And how do two people go from something so intimate to just a platonic relationship? You have seen that person naked, you have been as physically close to someone as is possible without being conjoined. How do you forget that and go back to before?
This all could just be the fact that I am most definitely "The Relationship Type." But really, I don't see how this could benefit anyone in the long run.
***I don't know how well this will go, it's my first attempt at more serious writing.***
I would love to hear your opinions/stories on the subject.
For this discussion we will consider "fuck" to cover not only sex.
I guess I just don't get it.
I have never been in anything besides a commited relationship.
I have never kissed outside of one, let alone anything that is near intercourse.
My boyfriends roommates on the other hand seem to be very big fans of this practice.
I've read articles before about how they are unlikely to work because someone will inevitably gain feelings for the other. From my stand point this seems pretty true.
For one of the roommates, who we will call Al, had this happen to him. He decided to engage in a "Fuck Buddy" relationship with a close friend of his groups. Apparently they had both decided at the beginning that this would be nothing more than simple sex (is that even possible?). Then I was told that Al had developed feelings for this girl and would not mind pursuing something more from her than just sex. She, though, had just gotten out of a relationship and had no interest in one anytime soon. Al then decided to keep up with the "Fuck Buddy" relationship and still is now.
But I can't help but wonder how long that can really last before someone gets hurt. He obviously has already developed some feelings for her and would you not assume that they will continue to grow? There has to be a point where he can't just settle for just sex with a girl he has feelings for.
And how do two people go from something so intimate to just a platonic relationship? You have seen that person naked, you have been as physically close to someone as is possible without being conjoined. How do you forget that and go back to before?
This all could just be the fact that I am most definitely "The Relationship Type." But really, I don't see how this could benefit anyone in the long run.
***I don't know how well this will go, it's my first attempt at more serious writing.***
I would love to hear your opinions/stories on the subject.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Social Sites Overload
So I am spreading out all over the internet.
Currently I have:
Facebook (Duh.)
Sarah-Land (fan site for author, dont worry I'm only slightly odd)
Blogger (As you can tell, I fail at it)
Tumblr (Confused but catching on)
I am still undecided on the Twitter front. I rarely post statuses on Facebook and when I do they are rarely personal, mostly lyrics of rap songs. I guess I'm just not as open as some people but I'd like to change that. JUNE 21 WAS MY BIRTYHDAY :) So now I am nineteen and still the same. I'm thinking of trying a New Years Resolution but for my actual life year and not the calendar year. If you have been keeping up with my rare blogs, you will know that I failed at the calendar year one but hey, maybe this will go better.
So here I am, open to social sites. Blah blah blah. :)
On a more personal life front, I am literally doing nothing this whole summer. I am not too happy about that I guess. Currently one of my bestfriends who moved across the country is visiting so I'm trying to spend as much time with him before he goes back to sunny Cali. He wants to see where I go to school so we have a fun 2.5 hour drive ahead of us tomorrow. But hey, at least the sun is finally coming out. :)
Currently I have:
Facebook (Duh.)
Sarah-Land (fan site for author, dont worry I'm only slightly odd)
Blogger (As you can tell, I fail at it)
Tumblr (Confused but catching on)
I am still undecided on the Twitter front. I rarely post statuses on Facebook and when I do they are rarely personal, mostly lyrics of rap songs. I guess I'm just not as open as some people but I'd like to change that. JUNE 21 WAS MY BIRTYHDAY :) So now I am nineteen and still the same. I'm thinking of trying a New Years Resolution but for my actual life year and not the calendar year. If you have been keeping up with my rare blogs, you will know that I failed at the calendar year one but hey, maybe this will go better.
So here I am, open to social sites. Blah blah blah. :)
On a more personal life front, I am literally doing nothing this whole summer. I am not too happy about that I guess. Currently one of my bestfriends who moved across the country is visiting so I'm trying to spend as much time with him before he goes back to sunny Cali. He wants to see where I go to school so we have a fun 2.5 hour drive ahead of us tomorrow. But hey, at least the sun is finally coming out. :)
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Finally
I am done with school for the summer.
Finally.
I am in the mood for change.
A piercing? A tattoo? New hair?
I dont even know.
It's summer. I now have 3 months to do...basically whatever I want.
I feel like I should work on myself.
It's about time I focus on myself.
I just feel lost.
Lame but seriously, who am I? I dont even know.
I dont even know what I like anymore.
Just blah. That is my mood.
Any suggestions for how to kick this funk?
Finally.
I am in the mood for change.
A piercing? A tattoo? New hair?
I dont even know.
It's summer. I now have 3 months to do...basically whatever I want.
I feel like I should work on myself.
It's about time I focus on myself.
I just feel lost.
Lame but seriously, who am I? I dont even know.
I dont even know what I like anymore.
Just blah. That is my mood.
Any suggestions for how to kick this funk?
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Failure.
Yes, yes I failed January the minute I got back to school. Grrrrr....
This month will be better time management.
This month will be better time management.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Oh no!
So when this is published it will be 2 days from when I blogged last. I know that goes against my resolution for January, but I think it still counts since I havent slept yet. :)
I go back tomorrow. I'm excited, yet scared kind of. I miss my friends and the independence. I thrived at college. I'm just scared that the anxiety will get in the way of my classes. What if I get an episode and have to walk out during class? Ugggghhhh.
On a good note, I havent had one in about a week. So yay for me! *clapclap*
I saw the Green Hornet today. My parents didnt like it much, but I think that was just because of the swearing. I thought it was dec. Not at the top of my list but I wouldnt turn anyone down from seeing it. I actually like Seth Rogan for the most part. He just has this I-dont-give-a-shit attitude that I think is funny. Maybe thats weird.
Another weird thing? I find Daniel Tosh's assholeness quite appealing ;)
I go back tomorrow. I'm excited, yet scared kind of. I miss my friends and the independence. I thrived at college. I'm just scared that the anxiety will get in the way of my classes. What if I get an episode and have to walk out during class? Ugggghhhh.
On a good note, I havent had one in about a week. So yay for me! *clapclap*
I saw the Green Hornet today. My parents didnt like it much, but I think that was just because of the swearing. I thought it was dec. Not at the top of my list but I wouldnt turn anyone down from seeing it. I actually like Seth Rogan for the most part. He just has this I-dont-give-a-shit attitude that I think is funny. Maybe thats weird.
Another weird thing? I find Daniel Tosh's assholeness quite appealing ;)
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