Quarter Life Crisis

I am currently going through what I like to call "My Quarter Life Crisis."

Essentially it consist's of me freaking out over the fact that I am turning the big 2-0 in less than six months. I've always imagined myself as a fabulous twenty-something: heels, pencil skirts, fancy drinks, city life. The problem is that of course I'm still stuck in college. Not just stuck in college, but at a college in the tiniest town imaginable.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my school. I wouldn't transfer for anything. It's just hard to imagine myself in the role I've always dreamed about when I'm 45 minutes from a Target. Where do I wear my heels? Where do I get tgo exerience the city lights? No where.

I'm also just tired of school. I don't want to learn-I want to do! I want to get started on my career and make a life for myself. Studying is just not what I'm passionate about. It's hard to believe that I have 2 and a half more years of this.

When will my life get started?

Clothing Confusion

I don't know if I have mentioned this before but I am from the wonderful state of Minnesota.

Now close your eyes and envision Minnesota. What do you see?
My guess is you see a shit ton of snow. Well, you're half right.

People from other states don't seem to understand that Minnesota is not all snow. We actually are one of those awesome states that shows all of the seasons in their wonderfulness. In Spring it is all green and blooming, in Summer it is as sweaty as a fat man's balls, in Fall the leaves are changing and falling, and yes, in Winter it is cold as hell.

Now as you all may know, it is October. It's supposed to be the ideal fall month: crisp air, leaves falling, sweaters, and scarves. Problem is, Minnesota is bipolar during Fall.

Last week I was bundling up in sweaters and wearing my awesome riding boots while enjoying a wonderful latte. This week though is forcasted to be in the 80's. Um, no. I have happily retired my shorts for jeans and tights. I do not want to go back to sleeping on top of my covers in just shorts and a sports bra. I want to cuddle in the blankets and sleep comfortably.

This creates a sort of confusion on the way that people here dress. On any given day on campus I will be sitting down and watching the people walk by. The first girl is in her jacket, jeans, and ugg boots. The second girl is wearing her short shorts, flip flops, and a tank top. The next girl is wearing shorts, uggs, and a t-shirt.* Do you see a problem here? Minnesotan's just do not understand how to adapt to these damn weather changes.

My personal opinion is once you're mid-way through September put your damn shorts away! Yes, you can wear them on those scary days where the high is 88 degrees, but otherwise you need to retire them and accept the days of not shaving. Don't even consider wearing your jacket unless it is too cold with just a sweatshirt on. I guarantee that by February you will be aching to not have to wear one, so hold off as long as possible. Enjoy the chill in the air, it's refreshing! And I just don't understand why I have to go here but seriously people, DO NOT WEAR BOOTS WITH SHORTS! You just look confused about the weather. Shorts are for hot weather and boots are for cold. It's possible to pull off a sweatshirt with shorts, but boots are too far. I'm only trying to save you from yourself.

*Guys do not matter because they will wear jeans throughout the summer or wear shorts throughout the winter. They are beasts and I do not understand them.

Fuck Buddies

So, Fuck Buddies. Friend's who hook-up.
For this discussion we will consider "fuck" to cover not only sex.

I guess I just don't get it.
I have never been in anything besides a commited relationship.
I have never kissed outside of one, let alone anything that is near intercourse.

My boyfriends roommates on the other hand seem to be very big fans of this practice.

I've read articles before about how they are unlikely to work because someone will inevitably gain feelings for the other. From my stand point this seems pretty true.

For one of the roommates, who we will call Al, had this happen to him. He decided to engage in a "Fuck Buddy" relationship with a close friend of his groups. Apparently they had both decided at the beginning that this would be nothing more than simple sex (is that even possible?). Then I was told that Al had developed feelings for this girl and would not mind pursuing something more from her than just sex. She, though, had just gotten out of a relationship and had no interest in one anytime soon. Al then decided to keep up with the "Fuck Buddy" relationship and still is now.

But I can't help but wonder how long that can really last before someone gets hurt. He obviously has already developed some feelings for her and would you not assume that they will continue to grow? There has to be a point where he can't just settle for just sex with a girl he has feelings for.

And how do two people go from something so intimate to just a platonic relationship? You have seen that person naked, you have been as physically close to someone as is possible without being conjoined. How do you forget that and go back to before?

This all could just be the fact that I am most definitely "The Relationship Type." But really, I don't see how this could benefit anyone in the long run.

***I don't know how well this will go, it's my first attempt at more serious writing.***

I would love to hear your opinions/stories on the subject.

Social Sites Overload

So I am spreading out all over the internet.

Currently I have:
Facebook (Duh.)
Sarah-Land (fan site for author, dont worry I'm only slightly odd)
Blogger (As you can tell, I fail at it)
Tumblr (Confused but catching on)

I am still undecided on the Twitter front. I rarely post statuses on Facebook and when I do they are rarely personal, mostly lyrics of rap songs. I guess I'm just not as open as some people but I'd like to change that. JUNE 21 WAS MY BIRTYHDAY :) So now I am nineteen and still the same. I'm thinking of trying a New Years Resolution but for my actual life year and not the calendar year. If you have been keeping up with my rare blogs, you will know that I failed at the calendar year one but hey, maybe this will go better.

So here I am, open to social sites. Blah blah blah. :)

On a more personal life front, I am literally doing nothing this whole summer. I am not too happy about that I guess. Currently one of my bestfriends who moved across the country is visiting so I'm trying to spend as much time with him before he goes back to sunny Cali. He wants to see where I go to school so we have a fun 2.5 hour drive ahead of us tomorrow. But hey, at least the sun is finally coming out. :)

Finally

I am done with school for the summer.
Finally.

I am in the mood for change.
A piercing? A tattoo? New hair?
I dont even know.

It's summer. I now have 3 months to do...basically whatever I want.
I feel like I should work on myself.
It's about time I focus on myself.

I just feel lost.
Lame but seriously, who am I? I dont even know.

I dont even know what I like anymore.
Just blah. That is my mood.

Any suggestions for how to kick this funk?

Failure.

Yes, yes I failed January the minute I got back to school. Grrrrr....

This month will be better time management.

Oh no!

So when this is published it will be 2 days from when I blogged last. I know that goes against my resolution for January, but I think it still counts since I havent slept yet. :)

I go back tomorrow. I'm excited, yet scared kind of. I miss my friends and the independence. I thrived at college. I'm just scared that the anxiety will get in the way of my classes. What if I get an episode and have to walk out during class? Ugggghhhh.

On a good note, I havent had one in about a week. So yay for me! *clapclap*

I saw the Green Hornet today. My parents didnt like it much, but I think that was just because of the swearing. I thought it was dec. Not at the top of my list but I wouldnt turn anyone down from seeing it. I actually like Seth Rogan for the most part. He just has this I-dont-give-a-shit attitude that I think is funny. Maybe thats weird.

Another weird thing? I find Daniel Tosh's assholeness quite appealing ;)

Do I have to go back?

Dont get me wrong, I love college.
It's just that...I love being home too. I'm one of those people who thinks a good night is sitting at home with my mom watching any form of CSI. Thats one thing I miss while I'm at college.

But I do miss my friends. Especially my roomie. It's weird going from seeing people pretty much constantly, to not seeing them for a month. It's lonely I guess.

I'm not at all excited for the work load. I never had homework during high school, and when I did, I complained about it. Now, I am constantly doing some work for a class. That could be because I force myself to do every reading assigned to me. Poooooooooop.

And another good thing about going back, Glee! Glee will be back a little after the new semester starts. I miss the Glee parties we had on our floor. It's going to be great to have it back.

I'm sorry this blog is so boring, but I've kept up with my goal! Half way done! Woot!

I go back on Monday :(

Doctors

Whenever I have some sort of health problem and end up at the doctors I feel stupid. I feel so bad and sick but the way they look at me makes me feel stupid for thinking that it mattered.

So I ended up at the doctors on Tuesday. I guess you could say I had it coming because my mom had plans to make me go for my anxiety but then on Monday night I had the worst cramps. They kept me up until 6 AM, and I only slept then because I basically passed out.

I went and he just made me feel stupid for going for cramps. He basically told me to take aleve, like no shit. I'm a girl, I know. I wouldnt be there if they werent getting in the way of living. But on a good note, he prescriped me something for the anxiety. He said that for a lot of people just having the medicine makes them feel better. Thats what I'm hoping for.

:)

I love Criminal Minds. Actually, I basically love any show like it. All CSI's, NCIS, Criminal Minds, Without a Trace.

Random ^

So while I was sleep deprived I came up with a great book idea. I'm just kind of scared to take on something as large as writing a book. It's always been a dream of mine, a way to make a mark. Maybe a way to show people how great books can be. I just dont know where or how to start. Do you just start from scratch? Make an outline? I have no clue.

Minnetonkas :)

Today was...half and half.

It started out great actually. My mom took the day off so that we could hang out before I go back to school. We filled out the application so I could rent a house next year, which was luckily approved. Hope we get it!

Then we went to DSW to look for winter boots, but left with something much different. I finally got my first pair of Minnetonka moccasins! They were only 25 dollars and fit perfectly. I'm so excited to wear these but will have to wait until the snow stops. They're perfect for a dressy outfit, but also for something just for comfort.

And for dinner we went to PF Changs, which is one of my favorite restaurants. They have this good deal where it's 2 people for 40 dollars. This is what I got:
Hot and Sour soup
Chang's Chicken Lettuce Rolls
Sweet and Sour Chicken
Raspberry Cheesecake Shooter

Yuuuuuuuuuuuum :)

Buuuuuut, the bad had to come of course. I was so excited because my old orchestra was having a concert that fell over my break. I promised one of my friends that I'd go see her play. I was fine through the 7th and 8th grade orchestras but once high school on stage my anxiety started. This time is got so bad that I thought I was going to throw up. I was luckilly able to see a few people before I had to go home. Dont you just love when people seem genuinely happy to see you? Its a good boost.

On a side note, I think my car hated high school. Everytime theres a possibility it might go to the high school, it decides not to start. I just dont get it ha ha.

Major Anxiety Issues

So...I dont know what wrong with me.
Basically everytime I go out I end up having a major anxiety episode. It feels like I have to give a speech x10. It usually only lasts about an hour but yesterday it lasted at least 2. I'm really starting to get scared.

I'm supposed to go visit some friends in the city but I'm kind of scared that its going to cause another episode...I dont know. Maybe me thinking that it will, will cause it.

The problem with these episodes is I dont know what causes them. They just come and go as they please. I just feel really anxious about things but I have no clue why. I guess I can just hope for the best with this all.

I'm not even sure if I'm going tonight, but if I do then I have to do my blog post for today before I leave. :) It makes me happy that I'm keeping up with my January goal. What I'd like to do is not write such pointless blogs about my boring life. We'll work on that.

Oh! About last night, I had dinner with my college girls. We went to this delicious Italian restaurant and I had a half order of pasta and a piece of cheesecake. It was soooooo good. Afterwards we decided to see Black Swan. My anxiety kicked in before the movie and lasted the whole time so my mind is a little blurry about the movie. But I can tell you, its pretty damn weird. Good, but so extremely weird. I really liked the thought behind it. I dont want to say too much about it since you might have not seen it. One things I do have to say is Natalie Portman probably shouldnt let her child EVER see that movie. No child wants to see their mother in an awkward lesbian sex scene. Or touching herself.

Strange Couple :)

Yesterday the boy and I exchanged gifts, finally. It took forever for Amazon got my stuff to me. Grrrrrrrr. But I got all three seasons of Arrested Development, a military style jacket (I'll try to organize an outfit and post it), and Catch-22.

That last present is when I realized how we're weird people. Most people probably dont ask for literary classics, but we of course do. I bought him The Great Gatsby, which I plan to borrow when I'm done with Catch-22. Actually, I asked for Catcher in the Rye but got that instead, which is probably better since I've read Catcher in the Rye twice already. :)

I also bought him the soundtrack to The Social Network, season five of It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, The Advertures of Sherlock Holmes, and a plaid shirt. Not too exciting I guess.

Tomorrow, I'm going out to dinner with my girls from school. I'm so excited! After being constantly around each other for a whole semester it's been weird being away from them. We're going to this delicious Italian restaurant, the food is delicious. It's actually where I had my birthday dinner last year. I need to decide what wear though. :) Maybe I'll post some pictures of the event.

Oh, do you like Arrested Development? I really hope they get the movie going. I can guarentee I'll be at that midnight showing.

So I'm starting to think thsi resolution is going to be harder than expected. I need to post today but I really don't have much to talk about. I've basically sat on Hulu the past couple of days.

You probably dont know this but after Facebook, I bet Hulu is my most visited websites. I have some weird obbsession of watching shows from beginning to end and Hulu has just fueled that. So far I've seen all Scrubs, One Tree Hill, Greek, Pretty Little Liars, 10 Things I Hate About You, Glee...probably more but thats all I can think of right now.

I actually just got done watching the premiere of Pretty Little Liars. I rewatched the first season the past two weeks. Do you watch that show? It's amazing. The perfect amount of mystery and suspense intertwined with the normal high school drama. Love it. *****SPOILER***** And wow, I cannot believe Noel Kahn, like where the hell did he even come from? And Melissa married Ian, when he was the last person to see Ali alive. Hannah should totally go with Lucas because Shaun can be a huge ass to her.


Ok, spoiler done! I went to a workout thing with my mom tonight and blah, it was...blah. The man on the video was so weird. He said he felt it burning in all the right places. So maybe I'll be feeling that tomorrow. I sure hope not. :)

Tomorrow I'm exchanging gifts with the boyfriend, so I need to go wrap them :)

2011...Sorry.

Yes, I'm going to make a post about the whole year change. It's a must.

There isn't that much to say about 2010...I graduated, I went to college, I finished my first semester of college. In between there were friends, a nose piercing I recently took out, and the boy.

But that's all in the past now.

What do I hope for 2011 to be? I truthfully don't know. I guess it hasn't really hit me yet. For some reason things always hit me late. I still feel weird saying I'm 18 even though it's been half a year, and when everyone was having mental breakdowns over going to college, I just...wasn't. I dont know.

But I have come up with the usual resolutions, with a little twist I guess! I've decided that I'm going to make one resolution for each month of the year. I dont know them now but plan to announce them before the month begins. There are a few reasons why I decided to do this:
1. Focusing on one resolution will help me complete it
2. If I decide I like it, I can continue it. But if I don't, I can give it up without failing.

So for the month of January my resolution is post on here more! That's not that specific but I'm thinking at least every other day, just to give myself a number to aim at.

I hope your 2011 started out well!

Skype Kisses

I am high on love. Is that even possible?
Dear God, I sound like a crazy.
Please excuse me. It's 1 AM and I've been home most of the day.

On a good note, for myself and you guys, I am home! Until January 18th :)
That means hopefully me getting into blogging and posting more often.
I still havent decided what to do with this blog but I guess it will transform into something of my own along the way. I'm not ready yet to admit to anyone I know that I have a blog. I don't know if I ever will be. One time I was writing a post and my boy called me up and he was right outside my door, so I slammed my computer shut and he accused me of watching porn. Which made me laugh. Which made him believe even more so that I was watching porn. Oh boy. I wont live that down for a while.

My 1 final went well I guess. It was basically just a chapter test so it wasnt as bad as a real final. I was lucky enough to have it scheduled on Monday so that I could come home right away. My boy is stuck up there until Friday. And since I haven't seen him since Tuesday last week I decided we should Skype tonight.

You know how I know that being with him is right? How I can skype him and there are never any awkward silences. There are only certain people I can talk to on the phone with ease and that is my parents and him. I guess you don't know much about our relationship and maybe I can go over that in a different post. But he is basically my best friend, he is actually the only stable relationship, besides family, I had all through out high school. He was my rock.

Anyways, I'm basically having one of those moments where you're giddy about the person you're dating. So yes, mostly to S because I know she usually reads these, you can still have these moments after 44 months (Today actually, no we dont celebrate. I just find that counting the months is funny because it's a ridiculous number.). What causes this crazy moment is that when he said he had to go to bed, he tried giving me a kiss over Skype. And then made me do it back. :)))))

I'm going crazy, so I will leave to save you from my gross mushiness.

Still here, but missed the Butterbeer

So I'm sure it seems liek I have disappeared and in some ways I have. I can't even begin to explain how crazy life has been the past few weeks. This is my last week of classes which means I have tons of final papers and projects. Luckily, I only have one final and then I will be home for a month. I am so excited for a month of no homework and time with friends.

Next semester should be pretty fun though. These are my classes:
Geology (AKA Rocks for Jocks, the easiest science.)
Intro to US History
Intro to Lit
Intro to Theories of Communication

I dont think I ever told you guys that right now I'm double majoring in English and Communications. I'm pretty excited for where it will take me. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it but thats not that important. It's taken me a long time to get to this point, a point where I dont have to focus on what career I want but just what I find interesting. We'll see how long this lasts though.

Some interesting things that have been going on around here are mostly Harry Potter related. Thats right, my school is OBSESSED. I am on a ground quidditch team called the Mass Mauraders. But my school is going to have something called the Prarie Cup which will be teams from some other schools in the midwest sometime this spring. To raise money for it we sold chocolate frogs that came with trading cards of professors from my school. Then last Saturday we had a Yule Ball complete with butter beer. I missed the butter beer though, sad day. Heres a pic:

I'm 4th from the right.

I'll try to post more once my life calms down.

So S of Confessions Of A Boring Girl tagged me to do this. Hope you enjoy some random things about me!


Four Shows I Watch:
Scrubs, One Tree Hill, Glee (which is starting in half an hour!), and America's Next Top Model. Judge if you want! :)

Four Phrases I Say A Lot: "Ello poppet.", "Yyyuuuummmmmyyyy.", "Well Cosmo says...", and "He's climbin in yo windows, snatchin yo peoples up, tryin to rape em so you need to hide yo kids, hide yo wife, and hide yo husbands cuz they rapin everybody out here."

Four Things I've Learned from the Past:
1. Life is short.
2. Don't procrastinate.
3. Drive carefully in the snow.
4. One thing can affect everything, no matter how little it is.


Four Places I Would Like to Go: Italy, Greece, France,and Germany.

Four Things I Did Yesterday: Classes, homework, laundry, watched Inception. What an exciting day...not.

Four Things I'm Looking Forward to: Going home for Thanksgiving, eating REAL food, seeing some friends I don't see often, and...Glee!

Four Things I Love About Winter: Catching snow flakes on my tongue, cuddling, drinking tea/hot chocolate, and Christmas time.

Four Things on My Wish List: Some shoes from Target, pj pants, jewelry holder, and earrings.

So I guess it's my turn to choose some people but since I can't do tag backs that leaves me with only one.

Chelsea of Don't Drink the Punch

Dance, Dance, and More Dance

Yes! Second post finally!
I would have posted sooner but I have been extremely busy this whole past weekend. But now that I finally have some down time to catch you guys up on the past few days.

Thursday:
Once classes were over, I had dance from 5-6 and then had to be back at 7 for a dress rehearsal. After all the dance crap I literally ran into my room in order to change and go wait in line for Harry Potter. Which was amazing by the way!

Friday:
I luckily didn't have any classes on friday so I could recover from staying up until 4 the night before. The only thing I had to do was go work on a project for one of my classes. Then I got ready and had to do the first dance show. I think it went really well. My dance was Girlfriend by Avril ha ha ha. I know it's an old song but it was pretty fun. After the first show I got invited to go to see Harry Potter again, and of course I said yes.

Saturday:
I had to wake up super early and get ready for two more dance shows. For the first one my parents came to so it was nice to see them. After the first show, my parents took me out to this super cute Italian restaurant that I've been to a few times. I don't really remember what I had but it was a breaded chicken breast with a little lemon vest to it. It was on top of some pasta with alfredo sauce. For the second show, my boy came and watched with some friends. I had tried talking him out of coming but it didn't work so well. But of course, I truely did want him to come. After the show we haad a girls night! It was awesome! We read Cosmo and gossiped about the boys on our floor. It was very much needed. My roommate and I had it in our room so we decided to be good hosts and buy some fake bubbly.

Sunday:
Well, I slept until 3 so most of the day was spent sleeping or doing homework. Basically was a recovery day.

I'm super excited to go home on Wednesday for Thanksgiving. One of my friends who went to school across the country is coming home finally and hopefully I'll get to see her at least once. I'm also excited for real food. For example, when I put some Turkey on my plate I will be able to say this is Turkey, and know for certain it's 100% Turkey. You have no clue how this will feel.

Here's some pictures!

Waiting in the dressing room. I'm wearing the read sweatshirt.

Before Dance with girls from my floor. I'm in blue.

Waiting in line for Harry Potter. I'm in the red coat.

Hope your weekend was superb!

How...

God only knows how I can start this out. Should I tell you bout myself? Should I just start with a random post? I have no clue what would be the best, but we'll start out with a mixture of both I guess....

As you can tell my name is Chelsea. I'm currently 18, though that still is a suprise to me. This is my first year at college and I'm loving it so far. At this moment, I'm an English and Communications major, maybe that can tell you something about me. I love to read, hang out with my friends, and blog surf ( so feel free to suggest your blog to me :) ).

Basically, I'm your average Facebook addicted-stressed out-snacking college freshman. Nice to meet you :)

No, I'm not going to limit my blog to the boring stories about school. I'm interested in many things so hopefully that'll shine through the mass amounts of homework and late nights with friends. I'm hoping it'll be about my life, my thoughts on things like fashion and books, and just an outlet for the things I can't usually get myself to say out loud.

Here's to the (hopeful) start of something new: my blogging life.